As for jobs, I am a nurse but not in the traditional hospital role any more. I have specialised over the years and now basically do OHS or Rehab/Injury Management and unless you want to do FIFO (which I don't and can't due to the babies), then everything else is all taken and it's like waiting to fill dead mens shoes. There's just nothing - literally. The frustration is awful and it compounds the other problems right now.
I know that everything you say is right aboutnot being dragged down but I just can't seem to get off the starting blocks. Maybe I need to text H this morning afterall - if I know when he is coming down, that will give me something to look forward to. I know that I should be breaking that thought pattern and start heading toward detachment but I just can't do it - and what is more, I don't even know that I want to do it. It's like letting go and admitting that I have lost. That's a scary thought when I am so very much on my own - he is my only safety net and it's bad enough that there is a gaping hole in that, never mind to have him totally gone. That is what is so different in my sitch than for most others who post here - most have family or close friends ... it's heinous that I am forced to live like this. It's the cruelest blow of all.
Talk later ..
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
