Thanks SFO and Being Me. Y'know, I have never felt so wiped out as I have these days. It's not a good time for me to be thinking about dating or anything except getting my strength back. It's amazing what your mind can do to ya when you're lacking energy. I said to my doctor a few weeks ago " the last five years of my life have been a bit of a hell ride but I've never taken a drink or a pill to get by and now a lousy virus knocks me on my back and I'm having trouble getting back up!" It's frustrating when I've basically kicked the crap out of every sitch that life has thrown at me in the past few years and now something so minor seems to take more out of me than all that ever did. I keep trying to think about what the Lord might be trying to teach me and all I can come up with is that he wants me to recognize that I'm not some sort of self annointed superman who can take just about anything and bounce back. Maybe I have to recognize that's it's OK to be tired sometimes, it's OK not to do everything all the time, and maybe, just maybe, it's a chance to deepen my connection with my maker. Who really knows. Btw, I've returned to my old church. Something just kept bringing me back there until I was once again spending more time there then at my new church. So I decided to return full time. The Pastor said "Whatis, there must be some reason the Lord keeps sending you back to us" Again, who knows. I also found that my dreams of re-kindling my friendship with my woman friend by going to church together was pretty much a no go. Since january we have lost a great deal of contact with each other and I wanted that back. Shortly after I began attending her church she started coming with someone who I disapprove of for reasons I will not disclose here. In a private conversation I was very honest with her about my concerns and that may have created some more distance between us. But hey, a friend says what he really thinks when he cares. So, I'm more comfortable right now being a little more distant from that sitch by attending my old church. Anyway, that's it for now. SFO, thanks for sharing your experience on this journey, it helps!
