Living, Loving, & Learning one day at a time

[Treese]

Hi all.....

Been kind of dormant.....but today...well...

I've been okay....cause basically H is non-existant...I'm better off that way....if I don't see him I'm okay....I've been okay I guess...Had a bad day when it was his "love childs' Birthday./..the day before mine.....cried alot...but I did okay...a friend took me out for dinner and bought me lots of presents....very nice....

I went to a Casino with my mom and sister for 3 days. while I was gone H came in and took some more stuff/....of course he did cause I was gone...took son camping for 2 days...whoopie....had him a total of 4 days all summer long....I quit asking for him to take him....I just took care of my kids....

well....today my D22 calls and says she called in her scripts and they tell her there is a $100 balance on the acct...so she calls me...I tell her I have no idea about it cause we have started to get our scrips her in town instead of mailing them....so I call....explain to them what I do now...guess what....it wasn't for my family at all it was the love child's scrips....the mother is supposed to pay half...didn't ....I texted H about it cause I'm sobbing so hard I didnt' want to talk to him...besides I haven't contacted him in weeks....he's living his wonderful life....he texts me back...he didn't know about them....these scripts are from March and May...evidently the kid is on a medication he needs every three months...great....didn't know that one....so my D22 says they wont send her scrip until it is paid....well....H gets bonus every month...part of his pay...it went from 2500 to $98.....I was crying so hard....H didn't even tell me ...I had to look on my account...so now I'm sunk.....D22 wants to call and give it to H but I said no cause he will blame me and its not worth the fight....I feel bad as it is....so my mom is bailing me out....AGAIN!!!

I can't stop crying....someone tell me the pain stops eventually.....