O for pete's sake. She emailed again. She's vicous and nasty. I will not respond again. Now she she says she's sure I've left a trail of disgruntled landlords. She says no LL would ever consider me a good tenant by any stretch. She can't wait for me to get out of her bldg. She says she takes a lot of pride in her properties and anyone who sees them would know that. {Just not anyone who lives in them!} She said she'll see me in court and I can save all the complaints for that day. She also said that she believes my dogs have gone out on the sunporch roof and pooed, and that it's not from the tenant upstairs. {That would mean the dogs opened & closed the screen, stood on a angled and corrugated surface and pooped right out on the edge without falling off. Absurd! They would poop in the house b4 they'd do something like that! And in fact did just that this a.m.} This situation is so unbearable. I'm turning 50 next wk. I want a new apt. for my birthday. This just has to end. I'm at my wits end. She also said I brought in too much furniture. ?! WTH is that all about. I think that's proof that she snooped around in here cuz I've been piling up everything I don't want into the downstairs family room and it's quite a mess and very cramped. I have my guest room furniture there, I still have the furniture belonging to the roommate I had committed to the pschyc hospital, and now all the furniture that I'm hoping to sell before moving. So that comment seems too random and weird, and I think it's evidence that she was in my apartment the other day leaving the footprints when she came up from basement. That's totally messed up. She's really driving me nuts! I have never been on bad terms with a LL b4 this. Yet she is making it seem like I'm the worst tenant in the world. All because I reported bldg code & fire code violations that she refused to correct. I'm venting here. It has nothing at all to do w/ dbing. In fact this situation is preventing me from pma, gal, & 180's that I should be working on.
On another note. I just got a facebook message from a man I dated nearly 25 yrs ago. He was younger than me, which wasn't working for me at the time. I've sometimes wondered whatever became of him. He's a producer and travels to developing nations and has been all over the globe. He spends a lot of time in NYC cuz he's shooting something in the west village. He'll be here late sept for a few months and wants to link and catch up. I am so surprised he found me, my last name is Johnson - it can't have been easy. Anyway, that was fun. It will be nice to see him after all this time has passed. We'll most likely have a lot of laughs remembering those days. Something to look forward to. It will be fun. It's strange how modern technology has the ability to bring people together again. People that you thought you'd never see or hear from again. Pretty interesting. It's provided me with many floating thoughts today. Like about time passing. And what I might be doing in the next 20yrs, and what if that's the next time I hear from Mark.... And lots of random thoughts like that. It makes me think I need to be much happier than I am right now. Life in my 20's, no pressure - little responsiblities. Blue skies forever and the future full of hope. How did I get here? Stressed out, broke, broken hearted... again. I think the new apartment and turning 50 is going to have to be a big turning point for me. I'm going to take the deadbeat dad to family court once and for all and get some child support. AAAck. One step at a time. Task at hand, FIND AN APARTMENT. Where is my apartment hiding?! It's time for a new leaf. I don't want to be in emotional limbo, in apartment hel#. {pause} Oh my. Some guy from India just passed by while I'm typing away in the window. He saw me and came in. He claims to be a holy man and he saw me that I'm not having good luck and he wanted to talk to me about it. He said your relationship is over and you are broken hearted, you are not making enough money in your business and you worry too much. To change this pattern, you must stop thinking. You are thinking too much and it's not good for you. Don't talk to much. You're telling everyone too much and it's adding to your stress. If you take a shower every day, pray to god every day, stop thinking too much, stop talking too much - then your luck is about to change. You first must be open to it. You need to sleep good at night and don't be awake thinking. Your troubles are soon over. Do as I tell you and from the 21st of Sept. all your luck is going to change very suddenly. You are lucky and your life is going to be good. Right now you are 40% unlucky and you focus too much on that. Focus on the 60%. It will grow soon and you will be happy again. You are generous to others and no one helps you. You love someone, and he doesn't love you. Your love relationship ended, you are spending too much time thinking about it. Let it go and luck will change and happiness will come back into your life. I will come back in one month. Will you remember me? I will come back to see you and you will tell me that your life has changed. Then off he went. Anyone else around here think that's awfully weird and certainly timely. I'm signing off for now, this board make me think too much & talk too much! LOL I thought it was helpful to have a place to journal and get some pearls of wisdom and encouragement. Due what just happened, I'm going to shut the computer and do something constructive. That's my bizarre experience for the day for sure.
