Still have the pain of the R and rejection, but the inner strength is coming back. I really was in bad shape for awhile.
This is much more the way that I usually am. Might not stay that way, but it sure the h*ll feels better. Also feels good that I drew the line in the sand and I do not feel guilty about that. Took a long time understand that I deserve a whole marriage, not just a room mate relationship. I have peace with where my decisions are taking me, even though it's not what I intended when I said "I do." I hope others can find their own peace too. Life is too short to continue going through the h*ll and torture of rejection. If I have to move on, I can start all over again but I am trying this separation as the last resort tactic. I have started from scratch before, and I know that I can make it no matter what happens.
