I know it may sound horrible but I have stopped not just praying for wife to return home as well as stopped praying for my wife period. Perhaps I've slipped into a darker part of me than I should and really need to think about that.
I know I need to move full steam ahead with my life for me and my boys. If she is not part of it, that is her loss. I do not need people in my life who do not respect and care for me. I talked to one of my close friends just before lunch and he reminded me that as long as I live my life with honor, there is no such thing as failure.
It is dissapointing what has transpired over the last 12-18 months, but I can not focus on the mistakes and the loss. I still have plenty to be proud of that I can hold my head up high.
So I'm slowly digging myself out of this funk. I've done it before and will do it again.
CIPA...you da' man!
We empathize with why you feel the way you do...nobody thinks it's horrible. It's horrible and despicable for her to have done what she has. I would encourage you to continue to pray for her, as hard as it is right now...and really mean it...you will be stronger and better for it. Ask God for wisdom and discernment, for both of you...and ask Him to let The Holy Spirit move within you both.
Your friend told you the absolute truth!
Focus on your boys and your job right now CIPA. Let some time pass. You're right...you need people in your life who respect you and who care for you. Your a great dad...and you're gonna get even better!
Yep...you've done it before and you'll do it again this time. It'll come slowly, so be patient with life and with yourself.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
