Hey M, I love the wolves story, I heard it myself before in English, how true it is.. but so hard in reality to stop yourself feeding the negative/worry/anger etc.. I guess they are all normal stages and unless you are very Zen, hard to avoid totally! I do see it as grieving. You are grieving your M, your love for him and the love you thought he had for you.. currently lying in ashes after the way he has behaved. In your head at least, how you view it. You have to put yourself back together from that and the cycling over things, finding stuff out is all necessary, to put it to rest. I've been doing it too despite being advised not to !! I didnt listen, I think its healthy, within reason hey. I wonder how things are for him now...
