What does he want?

[cantbreathe]

You want reassurances. You want him to say “Hey Baby, I’m just out of my mind for the time being. I’ll be back in just a short while but know that I love you and we’ll be fine.”
Heads up….he’s not going to say that to you. Ever.
Stop saying I love you. Let it go for a bit. Take the pressure off…you’ll be grateful you did. He does love you. He’s still there, and that’s proof enough.

Yes - that's exactly what I want. And you're right. I'm not ever going to get it. His being here is going to have be enough.