Feeling very sad today. Starting to grieve the very possible end of this marriage. I know for a fact that my W is not sure whether or not she loves me any more, or is even attracted to me. I emailed her last night to tell her that I would not be surprised if she did not love me, and accept the fact if she doesn't. She is carrying serious resentment toward me that shows itself in the very thing I want from her: intimacy.
I plan to sit down and write her a letter that amplifies on my thoughts some more, and to at least let her know that I can picture a happy life with her. In my experience, if you can picture yourself doing something, then it's possible. I don't know if she can picture that with me, but that's why I am giving her the space she needs to figure it out. If she can't, then she needs to let me go.
My W is taking constructive action, but it may be too late for both of us. It is action that she should have taken several years ago, which she admits to. How do you create love, trust, and affection where there is none? It's just so depressing today. I feel like someone's punched me in the stomach.
I may read the book, and will check out that link later tonight. Thanks for the suggestions. Gotta get to work now. Thanks for all the help.
