What does he want?

[cantbreathe]

Well, we had a good evening last night. The first half of the evening was quiet and tense, but later (maybe when he realized I wasn't trying to talk about it?) we hung out with the kids, he asked me to help him trim his neck while shaving, and we watched a tv show together before bed. It wasn't perfect but it was the best night we've had since all this started. We actually laughed. When I found myself wanting to follow him around I went to my room and journaled and then ran out to the store and called a friend. I think I did pretty good job.

D7 threw up in the night and after I had her back to bed and comfy, I went back to bed and found H awake. I went by his side of the bed and told him about D and then not thinking leaned down to give him a kiss and say night, love you. There was a pause (in which I kicked myself) and he said "I love you too." He hasn't said it in a week. It felt great, but I will keep it in check better today.

Btw - Burt, did the pretty undies thing last night. No comment but, I saw him looking.

Today, I think I will try not answering when if he calls. I don't have to work, so it doesn't matter what time he gets off work.