Overall, it was a good, positive encounter. It was very disturbing to me that my W could seem so NORMAL though. I didn't see any strange MLC behavior. She actually took an interest in what I had to say and what I was doing in my life, which is really weird. We actually had a CONVERSATION! An actual mutual interchange of ideas and opinions! Amazing! About the only thing I DID notice was that there were some gaps in her memory of things I thought the average person would remember if put in the same sitches that she was describing. But I know from talking to folks and reading the boards that MLCers have "flashes of sanity". Maybe I just caught her on a good night.
Originally Posted By: poet
Gotta say, you're still the same Jimbo! I had a good chuckle at the end of your message ... always analyzing ... that's my boy!
So sorry to hear you're still grieving, m'friend. If it weren't for our DA spouses, we wouldn't have to feel these horrible emotions. I kind-of seem to remember (maybe I'm wrong) that you don't have much faith in God, so it doesn't become me to say that you might try to ask for direction. I only say that because that's what I've been doing these past few days. And, I'm still praying.
peace, poet
Not sure where along the way I could have given the impression that I don't have much faith in God. On the contrary. I wholeheartedly believe that I am being guided to grow into a better, more fulfilling life. I also believe my W is, as well. Where my faith is shaken is whether our respective better lives will include each other or not. And part of my journey of faith is to recognize that I must let go and leave that part to God. My grieving comes not from what my W was/is doing to me/us, but from the prospect that I may be being told by Universe that I have outgrown my best friend; that I have learned all the lessons that she has to offer me- and that I must move on.
If we are meant to be, then we will be together again. If we have outgrown each other, then we will go our separate ways.
It is what it is.
Originally Posted By: beginnersmind
Hey Jim, I think your MLC translator was probably correct. But who the hell knows!
Could be, B.....but who the hell knows!
I did finally email her a response back yesterday to her "I'm a loser" email. Was she sending me a meta message? Was she looking for some validation? I don't know, but if she wants to play little "doublespeak" games with me, I'm always up for the challenge. This was my response back:
"sorry, I'm still a loser"
Really???....Not in my book. ;-)
Keep trying. Never give up.
I just know you'll get it one day.
Always, -Jim
I don't know if she'll ever win her contest, but I'm sure that one day, she'll wake up and "get it".
PATIENCE AND FORTITUDE CONQUER ALL THINGS. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
DBing and MLC take their toll....Please provide exact CHANGE. -Jimbo
