On the verge of a meltdown.

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@aliveandkicking
yes it is progress.the conversation ended on a good note.even though she is still in somewhat of a limbo we are going to try and refi the house and get caught up on the mortgage.I get to stay in the home.she is still a little hesitant about coming home out of fear.she is just worried that if she comes home in a couple of weeks I will just be back to my same old partying self.I have told her I hear what she is saying,but she is not listening to me I can not,will not go back.
I think it's just going to take time it's just so hard seeing the end of the tunnel and being unable to step into the light.

@Sara
I have made that suggestion.she is a little reluctant to go 1)she will be uncomfortable staying in the same room.mainly because sex in our marriage was always a strong point,never lacking so I think she might feel a little vulnerable.
2)I have checked and there are several in our area but our finances right now are in bad shape and the registration fee's are kind of steep.