Not a lot to report these days. Just been working away and looking after Wee Man whenever I get the opportunity. Still stuck in this rut I suppose. I'm trying my hardest to detatch from my W in my own mind and still finding it hard. I can't help but let the things she does affect me. I'm not showing any of this to her obviously but I'm still in turmoil inside.
She moved a friend of hers in to her house recently aftet her friend broke up with her fiance. I'm not best pleased about it because it's yet another person being involved in my son's life in a big way. It doesn't help that I didn't trust or like this particular friend of my W's when we were together. I have to learn to let it go though as there's nothing I can do about it. It's her house and her life and gone are the days where she'd want to hear my opinion about anything.
On a more positive note, I'm doing my first ever half-marathon on Saturday. I'm a bit nervous about it but also really excited to see how well I can manage it. It's hard to believe now that this time last year I'd be lucky if I could run for 13 yards, let alone 13 miles!! I'm also planning a mountain biking trip with some friends to the Scottish Highlands soon so I'm looking forward to that too.
One of my female friends is looking to set me up with another friend of hers this weekend too. I don't for a moment take it seriously but it could be fun to see what kind of crazy schemes she has in mind! Who knows, I may even be pleasantly surprised. Someone once said that in order to get over one partner, you have to get under another!! Lol, not the most DB friendly statement I'm sure but there may be a small bit of truth in it. I know in myself that I've reached the moving on part of the DB process. I can no longer hang any hope on my M as it will eventually send me mad. Live life for now and let the future take care of itself!!
Kev
Me: 32, Wife: 22 Son: 2 Married: 2 years Separated: January 5th 2009
Sometimes you have to become lost before you can find yourself.
