On the verge of a meltdown.

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well an interesting turn in events.tonight the W stops over the house while I was doing laundry and trying to get the kids clothes together, they start school Monday.Also we needed to have a talk with S14 because some of the gang he has been hanging with are just trouble waiting to happen.drinking,drugs the whole enchilada.so we are trying to nip it ahead of time.he has a drug test coming up for sports at school so we can tell then,but I do trust him.then my wife starts to ask him if he is having sex.that is where I had to draw the line.I told the W any more talk of sex and I can not be held responsible for my actions.she just gave me this look then we all busted out laughing.( too me it wasn't funny I was serious.last time was march)it broke the ice though.

finally all the kids vacated and I asked my W if she was going to file to have me removed from the house.she said no that we can figure something out and try to come to a solution.I couldn't resist so I asked her to come home.she hesitated for a little bit then told me the one thing she was worried about was that if she did come home that she was afraid I would revert to my old self and she would just be a doormat again.I tried to assure her that there was no way I would do that,I couldn't put her or my kids through that again.she said she has seen the change in me,and that she hates seeing the kids go through this. she just doesn't want to be hurt again.I can see where she is coming from.The one thing I can say is I haven't changed, I am the same crazy SOB she fell in love with,but my behaviors and actions have done a complete 180.I quit cigarettes 18 months ago,I have been clean and sober since Jan 1(yahoo)and I put my family above everything.but it is her fear of regression that keeps us apart.and I guess the only thing that will change that is time and patience.

So Ladies or Gents if you don't mind is there anything else I can do to try and move this to the front burner so to say.
and thanx in advance

God Bless