K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

No debate 25. I agree that I need to continue to make changes. I never said I didn't. Obviously if I stay a slimeball, God is never going to restore my M. The 2 go hand in hand.

Maybe I don't communicate things very well. But I am not in disagreement with you on changes. Trying to detach while still being mindful to pray for W and me is coming at a challenge for me. But I do not disagree with what you are saying.

I need to finish listening to my codependent no more audio cds.

As for my girls since that is what most are primarily concerned with, they are doing fine. They both had a good day their first day of school. Things went very smoothly for them. D11 had her first chior practice tonight with the Childrens Chior of Greater Dallas which she had to audition for and made it. They did really good.

D7's first dance class is tomorrow night. She is looking forward to it. They are both enjoying their grandpa here. He is really great with them.

Wednesday is the big C session for them. Thursday I have to go sign the title to our van over since W's new vehicle will be arriving. Friday the girls and me will figure out something fun to do. Saturday W gets them back. My plans are now canceled for Saturday so W was planning on my girls and her staying the night at W's best friends house. However, D11 hates going over there and wants to stay with me Saturday night instead. W told her I already had plans, and I did. But since I don't now, D11 is free to ask her mom if she can stay with me since she hates going over to W's friends house.

I don't know what else to say about my daughters at this time. It is definitely becoming difficult to keep there emotions at a healthy level. I'm sure glad they are starting C. Whether W joins in or not doesn't really matter to me. It is for the girls. As far as I can tell, W wants nothing to do with it after this first session. Thats cool. I will take care of it for the girls.

Why is it that God doesn't seem to bring S's back until the LBS is ready to live life without them? Maybe that is when the true change has finally occured and God says now you are ready.

25, I know that I will be ok on my own if she doesn't come back. It won't be as great a life as what it could be, but I will make it.

I'm not going to debate you on anything. I don't really disagree with you on most points. You are and have been like a teacher for me. For that I am grateful. I don't mean to frusturate you or anyone else on here. I am still moving forward and trying to adjust with applying peices of advice here and there. I just move slowly on some things.

Kevin

Kevin