I had really thought I had gotten past all the crying and the hurt and the pain in my gut. It has all come back just like it was when she hit me with the bomb of filing for divorce in January. Now I'm starting all over.
I just don't know how to snap myself out of this funk. I just feel like a failure. But I do know I have to focus on what I still have, not just what I have lost. Problem is I don't know what I still have.
You DID get past all the crying and the hurt and the pain in your gut. Then you got hit, big-time, with another bomb... You're gonna get past all the crying and the hurt and the pain in your gut this time too! Like last time though...it takes time.
You'll get out of this 'funk' too! Time...that's the key, my man. And you know how to pass the time...workin' on you! You're no failure! Do what's best for you, and your kiddos...with no expectations. Do it because it's the right thing to do, and for no other reason.
You got OK before, and you're gonna be OK again. Be kind to yourself, and be patient with yourself.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.