WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

There is no justification for the cheating and it was complete dishonesty to say she tried. She lied and cheated and her halo is dented.

Problem is right now she is still carrying on as the victim to her friends and family and living this life that the woman I had married never would have lived.

I do know what I want relative to the kids - to make sure that they will be the best that they can be through this situation. I want to keep them away from any influence or potential harm that they may be exposed to as a result of the path she has chosen. What I don't know is what that answer is. My gut says to get them away from her situation as much as possible, while I know the boys need to see their mom.

I don't see any signs of remorse, rather more of relief that she doesn't have to hide it from me any more. I don't know for sure since I haven't seen nor talked to her since the confrontation, but that's what my gut is saying.

I didn't get to skype my boys tonite as she had them just call me instead. Not sure why, but I also know I can't blame her for everything. My boys were in the middle of playing a board game so I suspect they didn't want to stop. I do understand as they are just kids enjoying their lives in this maddness so I know they don't know how much it means to me to be able to see them. I do have my pictures though.

Talking and venting about this does help and I appreciate all the support I have gotten from everyone on this board. It amazes me the kindness of people on this board that take the time to post and call/chat.

Thank you