(((Stronger))) You must have been through so much personal pain as to have made you so wise.
The 'script' is what has sucked me in to this huge negative vortex, even though the weekend was bad, I seem to have got worse having read something that I had read and re-read all throughout June and part of July. Why it should send me crashing now, is a mystery. I'm guessing that it was no longer fresh in my mind and, as I have been working on positives, it reminds me of why we are where we are. I also think that I have always put H on a bit of a pedestal (not that he saw that) and I can not believe now that he would ever do anything other than that which he says he will.
Throughout this 3 months, he has often called me a liar for some of my actions and words which have not met his expectation but I am considering that maybe it is he who has lied - in leading a life for 17 years that was based on fragility, mis-communication and him not being true to himself, never mind me. This makes me feel angry, resentful and full of rage. It is a waste of two lives.
I like the words that you used to your H in your penultimate paragraph. I have read some of your posts but I sometimes find locating people on here a bit of a chore - there's so much info and it's knowing where to find it. I shall look more later.
Thank you for your positive affirmations and I hope that I can do as well as you have been doing - although quicker would be nice!
Take care - be kind to yourself and I hope that we catch up again real soon.
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
