Cas - you are right, of course. It's just so tough when you are in a negative trough to listen to any words of wisdom
I am reading all the time .. it's a wonder my eyes haven't dropped out, so I am twice as pleased that I went and visited my optometrist last week to ensure that all was well
I have been trying to focus on me a bit more, rather than what H has said and done - and even what he is saying now, but after the email that I have just picked up from him, I crash and burn all over again. The email is so benign - so matter of fact and I guess that I was hopeful of a bit more than that after having not seen him in 11 days and only one short and negative text last Thursday.
I do hear the hope in stories like yours but I just wonder if other H's have loved their W's more than mine has apparently loved me I know that he would be upset to hear me say that as he is ADAMANT that he has loved me throughout the years. The letter shakes my confidence in that and his actions now ... well, I need say nothing as you already know.
In starting to love myself today, I am going to take a panadol for this outragous headache which is gripping me like a vice. I just feel like crawling back in to my bed then but I feel that I should go get those weeds - I keep threatening them but they keep on getting away with it. I just wish that I had some real friends here to turn to - I think that having my 'virtual' friends here is wonderful, don't get me wrong, but I could really use some human comfort right now.
(((Thank you for listening - and caring)))
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
I know that he would be upset to hear me say that as he is ADAMANT that he has loved me throughout the years. The letter shakes my confidence in that and his actions now ... well, I need say nothing as you already know. 
