I would wager a guess that it was much better than Nutri System. Not horribly unhealthy either. Not exactly low cal, but it was low in fat. The chops were extra lean and grilled. The marinade is spices and fruit juices and vinegar with only a tiny touch of oil.
I can not stay awake! Barely able to lift my arms, my lids keep closing even though I slept 7 hours last night, and when I stand up every joint in my legs and feet screams. What is that? It's making me freak out a little. It just doesn't seem like it could be the depression alone.
There is a thought running around my head that I think perpetuates my guilt feelings. What right do I have to be depressed? Seriously, I have a roof over my head, food on the table, my son, my mom, my family, a working car, as well as two jobs. I should be grateful for everything I have and I am! So why the depression? Does it just stem from loneliness? If so, how do you combat that? It's not like I don't see my friends and talk to them, I make a supreme effort most of the time to do that. So....why? Can anyone shed any light on this?
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Highjack Alert!!! Sorry for highjacking,.......Silent Cheerleader, how did you figure out how to take your garbage disposal apart and fix it? Mine hasn't worked for about 9 months and I don't want to pay someone to fix it.
Mishka, I agree with others' advice to have a medical evaluation.....but before you do that I would suggest giving yourself a REAL rest (as much as is possible) for at least 5 days to see if that improves your symptoms at least somewhat. That little test will give you some important information to tell the doctor when you see him/her. This means taking time for yourself and sleeping at least 7 hours/night. Our bodies are not perpetual motion machines....you take your car in for tune-ups.....your body needs time to replenish and repair itself too!
But first, look for a reset button, probably near where the cord comes in. If it is reset, you should hopefully hear some noise, even if it doesn't work. So, the shaft of the disposal goes all the way through to the bottom. If you are lucky, hiding in some drawer in the kitchen, there is a wrench/key that fits into it, and lets you turn it manually, and hopefully break any obstructions. Failing that, you can probably improvise a tool to do the job. Another way that can work, is to UNPLUG the disposal, and reach into the maw of the beast, and try turning everything by hand. That can be a bit gross, and it's possible there is something sharp in there, so it's pretty far down the list of desirable things to do! You really shouldn't have to disassemble the beast, the mechanism itself is pretty simple. It's probably jammed, and turning it manually will usually break the jam.
Mish, I know the dr sitch is way too hard right now, but please bring it up to your IC. Do you have their email address? You might be able to ask about your symptoms / keep a diary of it (sleep and work hours, exercise, interest in other activities you usually like, exhaustion level on a scale of 1 - 10 with different activities and different times of the day, your diet, etc. - you might not realize a trigger happening in there somewhere). The IC might even be able to get you a one-time referral to a psych or even a GP who will prescribe something for you to take - brain chem is very easily unbalanced and sometimes hard to get back on track without some help.
But think physical issues, too. Could you have mono, or the flu? There are other things that could be happening....fibromyalgia, lyme's, etc. Even anemia (the vitamins are a cheap thing to try).
As for me, I am now considered past "clinical depression," but it seems that my body is still catching up on all of the lack of sleep I suffered for more than a year (when I averaged about 2 or 3 hours a day). Now, if left with no alarm, I can sleep 11 to 13 hours, easy! Naps have become my friend, even if only 10 or 20 minutes in the afternoon. I hope things even themselves out, as I have stuff to do!! But, I also recognize that I have to give myself a break - I'd rather be tired and need a lot of sleep than have the constant tremors, sleeplessness, sick stomach that limited me to eating one yogurt over the course of a day, anxiety, etc., etc.
Do NOT beat yourself up over being tired or depressed!!! Think of it this way - did you ASK to be tired or depressed? Did you do make a bad choice to bring this upon you? Are you abusing alcohol or sedatives? No, it is just there, the way your body is reacting. Feeling bad about feeling bad.....how do you break that cycle? Let the guilt go!
Highjack Alert!!! Sorry for highjacking,.......Silent Cheerleader, how did you figure out how to take your garbage disposal apart and fix it? Mine hasn't worked for about 9 months and I don't want to pay someone to fix it.
ROTFALMAO!!!
Well, Jeff answered the question much better than I could have! When I took it apart, I just unscrewed whatever screw I could find until it came apart.......and then when I got the rocks out, I reversed the process.......and got lucky!!!
And, ((((Mish))))
I agree with the advice the others have given.......depression is not rational, and you need to treat it as any other health issue and get help......and if you're not satisfied, get a second opinion! And, there are other health issues it could be too (like fibromyalgia, etc...) which is all the more reason to see your Dr.
TJ
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Thank you VERY much for your clear, detailed instructions. I really appreciate it! You inspired me. I pulled out my mini-mag light and crawled under the sink. The garbage disposal hums, so it seems to be getting power. Found the reset button (Yeah! ). Didn't know about the disposal shaft (Thanks!). Found an allen wrench that fit the shaft and tried turning both directions. Didn't move at all . The garbage disposal is hard-wired so it would seem that given my ineptitude with electrical wiring, turning off the power and putting my hand into "the beast" is not an option for me. I'm thinking that I might need to put on a nice skirt, sandals, and mascara and head down to Home Depot to ask some nice clerk how this model works.....In the meantime (VH this will give you a GOOD laugh, so listen up) I put a bunch of penetrating oil through the chute, thinking that the bolts may have become rusted ( ).
Thank you again for your helpful feedback and moral support. It is much appreciated!.............. Silent Cheerleader I am in even more awe of you after my little foray into disposal-world.
It just doesn't seem like it could be the depression alone.
