In Limbo

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I like the idea of treating her like a neighbor. May get me to focus a bit better on how to deal with her. Ignoring her, Not having eye contact with her is exhausting. I just sometimes she would just show some emotion. Some reaction.

I don't think I will go Thursday. She needs to see me start to not care either. OK, I still do care and it does bug the hell out of me when she comes home at 4am....It does still hurt when she gets dressed to kill before she goes out...It still gives me a searing pain sometimes when I think of us living separate lives if we divorce. It kills me when I think of our sons with divorced parents. It hurts so bad that I worked so hard to get to this point in ourlives. Great Career, Great kids, Great house, Great wife....She takes it and tosses it away without ever really telling me how she was truly feeling...

OK--I got that out again. I do feel a bit better....