H asked me if I still wanted our M to work. I decided to be straight up, no playing games or being evasive, so I said yes, that is why I am still here. H said okay. I asked if that was it and H said yes, he is trying to stop (R with OW). I said nothing more. I am not going to throw demands at him at this point. Last time I did, it all went south and I got hurt.

I am not getting my hopes up, at least I'm trying not to. It keeps running through the back of my mind "Believe nothing they say and half of what they do."

H did rsvp for an event next month for both of us for his work (a promotional ceremony). I am hoping it is a good sign, maybe a baby step.

Either way, I will proceed with caution. There is such a long road ahead....all the twists and turns in store scare me to death.


Me: 39 H: 39
S: 15
M: 18 years
Bomb: 6/3/09
H moved out: 10/15/09
H moved back:5/30/10