His soliciter has now asked for a medical "fitness to work" examination It hurts so much that he would consent to this extra humiliation for me.I know he is afraid, and worried that he will be paying maintenence for ever.Where is the care and consideration for someone who loved him and shared his life for 28 years? Im upset because I am beginning to hate him-that frightens me but my daughter says its healthy.And yet,I know he is not a bad person and will be feeling awful about this.I dont think I will ever fully recover from this.Have started to get the "night panics" again.One day at a time.