Hi V, Enlightenment would be good...I still feel like I'm dealing with my share of frustrating darkness...But I'll find a way through all this, I have to...for my kids and for myself.
This weekend was tough...it was the first weekend since S12 left - and yesterday was my first day by myself in several months. I tried to make the most of it - and managed to stay busy for most of the day - though I think a lot of my efforts just kept me from feeling the emotions that finally caught up with me before I went to bed...such a rush of sadness washed over me...such a profound feeling of missing my son...it sent me tumbling a bit through thoughts of all that has happened over this past year - and it left me feeling a bit stunned...almost in disbelief, that so much could fall apart in just one year...though I suppose the collapse was actually years in the making - I had just managed to put it off for a long time.
