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I detached 3-4 wks ago soon after my W made the following comment to me: "I'm only staying around to be with the kids." It was then that I felt things were over. So to answer your question, I detached when things were at their worst for me. It was then when I became selfish and started thinking about what's best for me going forward. I allowed my self to re-attach when I felt things were starting to get better, that is, when my W wanted to work on things. I hope this clears things up a bit.

Also, I later found out that my W was only saying this to hurt me...that it wasn't true and that she really did want to be with me. So it's hard for me to judge when my W is putting up a strong front or when she's sincerely genuine with her words and actions. She's an extremely stubborn individual. I now realize that is why I need to be extremely patient during these times.

During lunch today, my friend is going to take me to a Christian bookstore to purchase a daily "miracle" prayer book. She says that it is at these darkest moments that I should be EXPECTING a miracle from God. Either God will "knock some sense" into my W to work things out or He will give me the strength to become an excellent single parent and make things better for me going forward. (these were her words). This friend of mine...she's like my little guardian angel.

Thanks,
LFH