Ok, just noticed after my run that W has been wearing perfume today. We were not planning on going anywhere today and haven't. She's never just worn perfume without a reason.
Welcoming noises. meoow-meo
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
I'm just going to play it cool and confident and throw in some flirting. Maybe an occasional brush against her while we make dinner.
I keep sensing positive vibes from her, but she still seems to hesitate crossing that unexpressed line we both know is there. I won't reach across the line, but I will try to make her want to hop across on my side.
She has her cake decorating class tonight. She's really excited about (even more than my kids who get to "sample" what she makes). I will have fun with the kids tonight.
And, we have our Alton Brown thing/date coming up on Saturday afternoon. Maybe a cool lunch somewhere we haven't been before prior to the show. If it's not too hot (unlikely), a picnic might be nice.
So turn up the GIMA Mojo while she is out. House squared away, kids in bed, GIMA all suave, lights dim, candle burning and you just being catnip. Pull it off with no expectations. You can buy me a beer later.
Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
Sorry Coach, but tonight ended like all the others. Separate bedrooms.
W came home from her cake decorating class. She was really excited about the cake she decorated. She finished decorating her cake at home (apparently she forgot to do some of the steps she was supposed to do at home befor the class), and she constantly asked me questions about how the cake looked and how she was doing. I complimented her work and told her it looked great. I asked questions about her class and really showed interest. It is pretty cool to see her having fun with this. I'm glad that makes her happy.
Each night we seem to creep a little closer to what our MR (at least the dialog part) should always have been. She seems to trust me and be interested in seeing me and talking to me. Not sure when she will cross the imagineable line in our R or what will prompt that. But, all I can do is keep working on me and that might keep her trust in me growing - I think it will. We will just have to see where this goes and how long it will take.
I'm not down tonight (and come to think of it, haven't been for a while). Maybe a little impatience working on me tonight. Nothing I can't handle. I just know its there.
Anyway, tomorrow, back to leading my M out of limboland and back to reconciliation.
Off to a great start this morning. W and I have a meeting tonight at D5's school, so I rolled out of the rack at 5:00 am and got a quick work out before work. Did some reading (Bible and No More Mr. Nice Guy), got the kids up (W usually does this), grabbed a shower and took S9 and one of our neighbor's kids to school.
Before I left, saw that W had dressed for a client meeting she has today. Black dress and some really hot shoes. I know, shoes don't normally do it for me, but these were black heels with strappy type thingys. Really looked sexy.
Anyway, I left without saying goodbye (W was in the back drying her hair). I was, and am, feeling confident today with the workout and reading already behind me. After dropping off S and neighbor's kid, I sent W an IM to say neighbor's kid, who is does not speak with anyone hardly, talked her head off the entire way to school. Apparently, I have a gift for talking with kids. W sends an IM back to say wow, she's surprised.
Feeling sort of cocky, I typed a response to W that said "Oh, by the way, you looked dam$ awesome this morning. Attractive shoes." Her only reply was "Thx." She then continued to send me IM's about how busy her day was. So, I don't think I offended her. Quite frankly, I didn't care how she felt. I gave her the compliment b/c it was the truth. Had the kids not been up and if our M was in the right place....
. After dropping off S and neighbor's kid, I sent W an IM to say neighbor's kid, who is does not speak with anyone hardly, talked her head off the entire way to school. Apparently, I have a gift for talking with kids. W sends an IM back to say wow, she's surprised.
How did you get the little girl to talk?
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
