One other thing meant to add ontop of my email above. My mom said last week: "well he wasn't always greatest about 'stepping up to the plate' i wonder if he'll actually do it with this (meaning file)" So who knows?

But in terms of the whole 'agreeing philosophy' it's gotta sometimes backfire, right?, like if I acquiese 'ok, i can't stop you..' etc and don't try to use Retro or any other method as a way to delay/see if there's a chance to turn around...it might just make it easier for him and he goes ahead and does it. Then what? I agree and sign and the marriage ends?

Thank you stuck for your words above, I am trying to stay strong...it is hard...I was feeling so confident and fine last week and just cried a lot last night.

Hope you are all well.