Hi-
I'm sorry guys, I didn't mean to seem like I was not listening, I am, and I hear you about the no contact thing. Sometimes I get conflicting advice, like DB coach I talked to couple months ago said to forward along funny little emails to start the 'friend thing' up again. Didn't think it could hurt but I agree that waiting until after I hear something would probable be better. I haven't totally gone dark...I go dark for awhile and then R talk comes up again and back to square 1.

I do like Stronger's advice awhile back though about if he presses for a divorce (on his own, without my bringing up), to say that in good conscience hard for me to do without trying retrouvaille (in the sense she was able to use counselling as her 'thing'). We went to a counsellor early last yr who was just awful. I would position Retro as a way to get closure on a healthy, communicative, more healing note..so he didn't feel pressure in attending. Is Gucci very opposed to this?

Sorry if I don't seem like I'm getting it, I do...I just don't know how he'll react to anything I do/don't do. For some reason I've been more sad the past 24 hrs, when few days before I was feeling confident and OK. Such a range of emotions.

Thanks for weighing in.
Hugs,
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