Something's in the water cuz H is starting to pay attention...
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Ya. And...I am not going to handle it the way I have before but this is tough because he tries to bait me any way he can.
Of course now I'm too tired to even recap but I had a great night and handled him just fine...again, I can "handle it." As soon as I get nervous or fearful or feel the hook sinking in, I remind myself that I can "handle it." And I do.
Basically, he is squirming around because I'm going out, he doesn't know where or with whom and I don't engage with him (just friendy when we exchange the kids)...second reference tonight to us maybe going out. Ya, right. And, ultimately, we "need to talk serious stuff." To which I answered basically, "Not right now while you know I'm out and not via text. Later. Email."
He answered. "huh?"
I said, "let's talk later." He gave me a juvenile response that referenced being "safe" (as in safe sex)...which I ignored and then he apologized and said he's just "on the edge" which I presume is supposed to compel me to explore what is wrong with him...I did not respond.
Now, I am handling everything so well.
My only real issue is that there's that bitty part of me that would prefer we work it out despite the fact that I can't see how we could ever be together again and I have lost both attraction and desire for him.
I really need to hold my ground as he turns the heat up and tests my resolve.
Later. Email."
