I really have been finally coming to this same conclusion about me being worth more. It is about control and I have known that. My H definately thinks he knows me and knows that I love him unconditionally. I do deserve more.......
Not sure, but this week for some reason.......cuz I have instigated no contact.... I just don't care. I feel like "you want to leave and figure things out, Ok, leave, but can't promise you where I will be if and when you come back." I think I said something to that effect to H when he was last here for a visit.
Mid-life crisis or not....I really have to prep myself for the D coming up in 2 weeks and the aftermath. Emotionally, this is going to be a very rough day indeed. I just am not sure what to do to prep for this...I don't think there is anything I can do. But, be myself and be strong. I am so afraid I am going to start crying. I need to stay strong. I am trying to come up with a plan for that. We will see....
