Magnificent

[Kalni]

Get ready and GO!
K

[BobbiJo]

Hope you went and had a great time!

[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, [[[[Mish]]]].

I know what you mean about the sweaty palms and such. Remember I live with panic disorder myself. But, I will tell you that the surest way to combat those feelings is to feel them and then do it anyway. The more power we give feelings like that, the more power they take! That's how people end up with horribly narrow worlds (agoraphobia) and such.

And, I don't think C for a year or more is unusual or bad. Solution based therapy is great, but not always the best. I think it depends on the sitch. I don't believe in "blaming the parents" either, and every family is "dysfunctional" in some way, but I do think it can be very helpful to understand the roots of certain things if you can get to them. Then of course, you take that and use it to help you grow and change for the better!

[kat727]

Ditto! Hope you are having a blast. Just think everyone else that went would be a tad embarrassed too. That is why everyone has fun...you are all uncomfortable together!

kat

[mishka422]

Sorry to dissappoint, but I didn't go. I couldn't do it.

I stayed home and did laundry and slept half the afternoon. I didn't mean to fall asleep and I'm pretty ticked about it. I was going to take Marc shopping for some new clothes with the money Gabe finally put in the account. It's not much, but it's better than nothing. Since he's $3,000 in arrears so $100 isn't even a tiny ripple on the surface of the bucket not to mention that he gets further behind every month. Whatever........it's a hopeless situation.

Dang it! I had plans for my time this afternoon but got none of it done because I couldn't stay awake. WTH is wrong with me? Even though I kept trying to stay up and get to work, I still couldn't manage to do it. I feel like I'm dragging through the mud all day, every day. I want to ride my bike, but I couldn't do it. I want to go for a walk....nope, can't do it. Every joint in my body hurts. I have a fear that there might be something really wrong but I can't go find out what it is. And, before you say it, no - there are no clinics anywhere that will accept me. I feel bad too that I keep thinking that I hope it is something horrible and quickly deadly instead of something lingering that will just add to my misery.

Good grief! I don't want to feel this way. It's stupid and ridiculous. Whatever!

[Silent Chrleader]

.....Dang it! I had plans for my time this afternoon but got none of it done because I couldn't stay awake. WTH is wrong with me? Even though I kept trying to stay up and get to work, I still couldn't manage to do it. I feel like I'm dragging through the mud all day, every day. I want to ride my bike, but I couldn't do it. I want to go for a walk....nope, can't do it. Every joint in my body hurts. I have a fear that there might be something really wrong but I can't go find out what it is. And, before you say it, no - there are no clinics anywhere that will accept me. I feel bad too that I keep thinking that I hope it is something horrible and quickly deadly instead of something lingering that will just add to my misery.

Good grief! I don't want to feel this way. It's stupid and ridiculous. Whatever!

It's called depression, Mish...... and it sucks, I know! But, we can't let it get the better of us!!

I am in a similar place emotionally that you are......feel free to call me if you want to talk...... I'm in the "book" (FB that is )

((((((hugs))))))

[Reincarnated]

It's not stupid or ridiculous - it is depression. Have you not seen the commercials that ask, What/Who/Where does depression hurt? I think it is cymbalta...but there are physical symptoms, too.

Too bad you didn't get to the party...hope that something else is lined up for this week - Make a list of 10-minute pamper things you can think of, right here. I'll get you started:

(ok, this is for longer than 10 minutes, but I'll get others:go to the local bookstore for an hour or two. Buy a cup of coffee and read all the books and magazines you want. It can be better than the library, because the bookstore sells coffee and treats and has a newer selection of reading material.
But don't forget the library - they have books on tape, and music that you can borrow)

Paint your toenails.

Have a cup of hot chocolate.

Pick a few flowers on a short walk (you can even ask the neighbors)

Not up to walking? Just take 10 to sit outside and breathe deeply. Or stretch out in the lawn - when was the last time you watched the clouds go by?

Get a sketch pad and doodle.

Look around for some card stock (or buy a large piece of poster board for $.60 and cut it up) to make postcards. Stick stamps on them and carry them in your purse. Jot a note to someone when you are at lunch or waiting in line somewhere - you'll brighten 2 people's day!

Speaking of lunch - what do you do while you have it at work? Play a game of solitare on the computer, virtually take a tour of someplace you'd like to visit, make an effort to sit with someone you might not normally talk with much. Go outside with a bag lunch and people watch / listen to kids play on a playground.

OK, friends, we need more free ideas....

[Silent Chrleader]

OMG!!!!

Mish, I just saw the pic of the party you missed on the "alt"!!!!

And you gave that up for laundry!!???

They look like a fun group of ladies!

(For those of you not on the "alt".......we're talking "BOB's" of every shape, size and color!!! )

[mishka422]

Yep, that's the party I missed! What a dufus I am!

Tara - my FB locked up and wouldn't let me respond to you. I had to shut that window down and now it won't reconnect. I think playing that Bubble game confused my computer.

Good suggestions Donna. I'm going to work on those.

I did do something I enjoy tonight. Although it's work, it still makes me happy to make a good meal for my mom and son. I marinated some really nice thick pork chops in a hawaiian luau marinade and then grilled them on my gas grill. I made coconut ginger jasmine rice and roasted zucchini, yellow squash, portobello mushrooms and sweet onions. It was seriously yummy!

Every time I use my grill I get a little jolt of pride. Gabe would never get a gas grill, he only like charcoal. I hated the mess and the waiting for the coals to get hot. Last year I bought a gas grill, brought it home in the box and put it all together myself and I haven't blown up the thing yet! It took me 3 days to get it put together, but I did it myself! So, tonight while I grilled the chops I looked at the grill and just kept thinking - HA!

Mark came into the kitchen while I was making dinner and was on the phone with someone. He asked what we were having for dinner and I told him and he was repeating it word for word to whoever it was. Later, I asked him who was so interested in what we were having for dinner and he said it was his dad. He was even describing how thin the onion was sliced and how the pork chops had pretty diamond char marks on them from the grill. It was pretty funny! I hope Gabe was eating his heart out missing my cooking. It was the one part of our M that I know I did well even if he never said so.

Going to bed. I'm so tired even after a 2 hour nap. I hate this.

[Silent Chrleader]

.... I marinated some really nice thick pork chops in a hawaiian luau marinade and then grilled them on my gas grill. I made coconut ginger jasmine rice and roasted zucchini, yellow squash, portobello mushrooms and sweet onions. It was seriously yummy!

OK, everybody.......Party at Mishka's house!!!!!!

.... Every time I use my grill I get a little jolt of pride. Gabe would never get a gas grill, he only like charcoal. I hated the mess and the waiting for the coals to get hot. Last year I bought a gas grill, brought it home in the box and put it all together myself and I haven't blown up the thing yet! It took me 3 days to get it put together, but I did it myself! So, tonight while I grilled the chops I looked at the grill and just kept thinking - HA!

You go girl!!! I know how ya' feel! I remember one time, when H was out to sea, and I was cleaning the fishbowl and some of those little rocks went down in the garbage disposal.......I wasn't too diligent about preventing it because stupid me thought the disposal would just grind them into dust, right? Well, all of the sudden the darn disposal was making this horrible noise and I smelled something burning!! Well, figuring I couldn't break it any more than it was, I took the thing apart and cleaned out the pretty little colored rocks, and put it back together, and darned if it didn't work!!! It still works to this day (some 10 years later) and ever time I use it, I have to smile a little....

.... .... I asked him who was so interested in what we were having for dinner and he said it was his dad. He was even describing how thin the onion was sliced and how the pork chops had pretty diamond char marks on them from the grill. It was pretty funny! I hope Gabe was eating his heart.....

No doubt about it!!