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[mishka422]

Sorry to dissappoint, but I didn't go. I couldn't do it.

I stayed home and did laundry and slept half the afternoon. I didn't mean to fall asleep and I'm pretty ticked about it. I was going to take Marc shopping for some new clothes with the money Gabe finally put in the account. It's not much, but it's better than nothing. Since he's $3,000 in arrears so $100 isn't even a tiny ripple on the surface of the bucket not to mention that he gets further behind every month. Whatever........it's a hopeless situation.

Dang it! I had plans for my time this afternoon but got none of it done because I couldn't stay awake. WTH is wrong with me? Even though I kept trying to stay up and get to work, I still couldn't manage to do it. I feel like I'm dragging through the mud all day, every day. I want to ride my bike, but I couldn't do it. I want to go for a walk....nope, can't do it. Every joint in my body hurts. I have a fear that there might be something really wrong but I can't go find out what it is. And, before you say it, no - there are no clinics anywhere that will accept me. I feel bad too that I keep thinking that I hope it is something horrible and quickly deadly instead of something lingering that will just add to my misery.

Good grief! I don't want to feel this way. It's stupid and ridiculous. Whatever!