What a sweetheart u are. You have been such a great source of strength and wisdom over these past weeks. I really don't know if you know how important your feedback has been to me. You really have been just simply wonderful. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I am really trying to be me but a better me. I now that this relationship demise didn't happen overnight and it surely wasn't all his fault. It was me too and I have issues that most certainly need working on. My co-dependancy being the biggest of them all. I am happy right now and I'm trying to project the happy, light and fun side of me adn not the scared, co-dependant, want to wrap myself around his leg and never let go side. I'm doing my thing, cleaning the house, reading, playing with my daughter. I'm just really trying to give space and be understanding that this is all new to him.
One day at a time, excepting the things I cannot change, and changing the one thing I can...ME. Boy, this one seemingly tiny idea of changing me and me only has really helped me immensly. Somehow it's given me strength and hope.
You are right you know....we can do this...actually, we can do anything. My therapist said to me "Think it and it will be. Your soul belives what your mind believes....so believe in you and in the love of God and the love of your daughter. In the end, these are all that really matter".
Take good care....I'm sending you hugs and strength for your continued journey.
Gina B
M 43 H 34 D 4 H asked for D on 6/21/09:1st D mediation 7/27;D says he wants to try 8/18; *I will stumble, I will fall down but I will not be moved.(N.Grant)
