he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

u did not rain on my parade at all.

i know how u feel.

but see i figured something out. the person u were with for those many years is not that person now.

i know we have all said that over and over but until u can fully grasp it and understand it, it will hurt.

i dont hurt anymore. it just hit me that the old h is really gone, he is in the past with mygood marriage.

i see him as 2 different people.

i miss that old person but not in the same way because it is as if he isnt around to be missed anymore.

not sure if i am making sense. ow does not have who i had. plenty of people have told me this but until u can feel it for yourself, it doesnt really matter what anyone says.

yeah, its funny how i fell so hard for this guy. totally weird that i met him, he is my absolute perfect match to the point of ridiculus. as if its not possible.

and he ran away. must have realized how perfect we were for eachother and got scared. not even kidding, i have it on my calendar to email him if i still feel this strongly in a few weeks!

and the people i have now dated since him, i compare to him, not h! its crazy!

u will be ok sanderika! i promise