he was back, i think

[Sanderika]

I would have to say you like a challenge.

I still can't believe the amount of gritty stuff you took on all at once and look at you now. Most of us tackle one mountain at a time. You took on the whole range...

I love it that you have come out on the other side better than you were before.

The new guy vs. H thing is amazing. I can't imagine making that switch as fast as you have. It has to be all about what and when you are ready for sure.

See Mdoodles, I am going to have to put an end to this too. I have DB for over four years and am a lot better off than I/we was four years ago but have failed in getting H back. I have tried all I could.

I have sneeking suspicions that H is seeing another OW not just the one I am aware of. I actually thought this in February. I got another idea of this between July 11th and August 16th.

I will not be able to overlook this one. This could be the deal breaker for me. I am growing emotionless where H is concerned and that is beginning to grow stronger. I think a person can only take so much and they can't take anymore. It's then that we change our hearts. I feel my heart growing away from H. I think he has given me way to much of a run. If my suspicions are true, I have alerted some faithful friends to watch for me, I will tell H the truth behind my behavior and be done. In the mean time I have decided to go pitch black on H.

I am strong. I am not courageous to end my 30 1/2 year past. I think now I must take the steps towards the end. I am thinking I have more power right now than I have ever had before in this sitch. I feel it is now my turn to deal the cards....??????

I hate this all so much.....

I would rather be alone in my world the rest of my life than have to continue here.....The heartbreak is too much.....

Sorry to rain on your parade, I really didn't mean to. I haven't posted much about me in months. Maybe I should have been doing so....I am getting confused about what I want.

I am tired....