Fallgirl`s Second Thread

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Fallgirl: All I ever wanted in my wife is nice and normal. I would have liked to know how much she loved me. Make me feel good about myself. I don't think I ever felt unconditional love from her. Just a letter from her telling me how she feels would have meant the world to me. I always got the tough exterior. It was a rare occasion when she was romantic. There were times on special occasions, etc..but never really felt like she wanted me.

Anyway, I think I entered anger mode about four days ago. She kept asking what she did. Why am I mad. I told her that was an insult to even ask me what is my problem. I said you have made it perfectly clear on many occasions that you don't care about my feelings. I finally told her I saw the letter she written about only marrying be 15 years ago because her father approved. I finally told her that I know she said "I wish he would cheat on me because I know it would be easier" to one of her friends. I told her that I feel that she was just trying to break me so I would file. She actually told my 11 year old that she may live next door to me some day. My son said, "Dad don't worry, I fixed it. I told mom to just worry about what is going on now."

She came home last night at 4am. Just as my 9 year old woke up with a fever. I just can't look at her. I am so angry right now. Being Mr. Nice Guy, Mr. chit chat guy, doing everything around the house guy, cooking guy has done nothing. I know it takes time, but I just can't act anymore when there is this anger so deep inside.

Glad you can still keep up the nice woman routine. I just can't act anymore...