H with 1foot out the door...LONG

[ginab1966]

Ok...this is sort of harder. I know, of course, I'm very blessed that he has decided to try but I'm finding I'm having a hard time knowing how to behave. I knew where I stood before. He wanted a divorce, I was the enemy, no chance in hell of us ever getting back together...me DB'ing for all I was worth. Now, I am still trying to focus on me but it's much harder. I find I'm reading his every move for clues to what he's thinking, if this is all going to change on a dime, etc. I have to stop this. I haven't verbalized it yet but I constantly want to check his emotional tempurature. Today has been a tough day. He's been a bit distant and of course I'm reading into that like crazy (co-dependancy at it's best). I've been cleaning the house cuz it's just out of control. He has been doing his own thing. My plan is to make a nice dinner and to perhaps sit and watch a movie. He hasnt' taken his Aderall (med's for ADHD) in two days which might explain the withdrawing. But, I just have to worry about me and my recovery. Just thought I would fill you all in. I'm not complaining, just scared.

Thanks,

Gina B