Just like Constantinople...

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CP couldnt be more right about it being hard to put up that facade. I saw her this morning in church, was polite but didnt make small talk, I only responded to what she said to me and I kept it brief.
I know this is what I am supposed to be doing but, i feel like an ass when I do it!
I thought it was a telling thing that happened in church today though. The sermon was about how we describe god, or what do you need god to be in YOUR life right now. At the end of it all, the pastor handed out those sticky name tags and told us each to write on there the name that you need god to be in your life (if your alone, put down friend. If your scared, write down protector, etc...) So I glance over at what my wife wrote down and I see that she had written down "Guidance". I guess I just didnt believe that she is confused.

This whole time i truly thought that I was the only one conflicted and confused. I was sure that she didnt think twice about her decision or if she second guesses herself. After seeing that I realized she doesnt have a clue what she wants or how to go about getting it!

then again, maybe I am reading to far into it.

VH, I will make sure I answer the phone but I will play it cool and I wont always make myself available to her! Thanks for keeping up with this soap opera I call my life!

CP, I humbly accept the name change due to it describing me so well (at least in my head thats what I see!!) Great to hear from you, how is life in FL? What fun things have you done lately? Take care and I hope to hear from you soon!!