I woke up this morning, and yeah just wanted to crawl out of bed and find her. Or call her into the room and pull her into bed. I know I can't do it. I won't.
W echoed something I said when we went to see the C. In the times of work stress, that she was keeping me afloat. She's got 2 kids to take care of, and she can't take care of me too.
Well, there you go. That's a 180 if there was one.
Funny, reaching out for support. My family members are all mad, that's no good. I have friends that say, protect yourself, get a lawyer, that's fine. I guess when it comes down to it, we've got to provide for ourselves emotionally, don't we. That's what all these posts are about - getting a life, PMA.
I had a rule for myself last time. Never take energy from the R. Only put it in.
Typing on the message board helps. Thanks guys. What was it someone said - man up. Generally in front of my family I've been solid. This has been a hard 24 hours, but yeah I can do what I need to do.
Yeah, I got on ADs immediately. They take a few weeks to kick in I guess. And I've gotten in the shower to have my episode.
W had a lot of fun at the baseball game last night...
