Moving on with my life!

[Startingover2]

I am sure he can feel it. Just like I know him, I am sure he knows me too.

He came today with his brother and SIL. Thank goodness for FB or I wouldn't have known they were even in town. He didn't tell me ahead of time they were coming with him and it would have shocked me.

They were pleasant and nice but it was akward. They are the sort of people who are nice to your face but then talk crap behind your back. They tell exh he is wonderful, a victim, and I betrayed him. Exh was doting over baby and it was making me sick...he was seriously over the top.

They stayed 30 minutes as they had places to go! Whatever.

[Startingover2]

I actually went out for a couple of hours without baby last night! My d18 stayed with baby and I went to dinner with some mommy friends. It was so fun. Baby did well, but clung to me when I got home

Exh had no idea what I was doing last night. In fact, he sent a text earlier in the day asking if I had any horseshoes. Seriously. He thinks we are buddies now? Wait....lemme see. You are going to a family party with your girlfriend and having fun while I take care of our child? Yeah, lemme see if I have any horseshoes! I never responded.

During dinner he sent "Nite. Love you." 5 times! Obviously drinking. Not sure if gf was with him or not. I am guessing so and I imagine him sneaking into the bathroom at the party to text me. I really hope she snoops on his phone.

Had a great night with girlfriends. Missed my baby and happy to be back with her.

[Startingover2]

I heard again yesterday that the new gf looks like she is on drugs! That is the 5th person to tell me that. Kinda scary. I guess she looks abnormally skinny, icky hair, pale face, sunken eyes and chain smokes. No offense to the smokers...just that smoking is something that exh hated and couldn't stand to be around people that did.

[Startingover2]

Once again I am proving my theory true..when I get overwhelmed, stressed, tired, broke, and lonely I get really down and hate my situation. I am all of the above right now and I am feelin' it.

I also heard from a sort of friend about exh's weekend. It came out before I could stop her and frankly I am so curious by that point I wanna know. She said he and his new gf stopped by a party she was at Saturday night. Hard to hear they are such a couple and he is willing to go public with her.

Why is that? I know I don't want him back because he is such a sociopath, but yet I still get so hurt by the things he does.

[Startingover2]

This week I rejoined the gym. Feels good to get moving again.

Yesterday while I was there I was talking to a woman I had never seen before. As we were chatting about our lives she put the pieces together of mine and figured out that she worked with married gf's husband! We both about fell off of our machines. She said he was devastated and had no idea...so far from the story of they were separated for a long time that exh and gf were telling people. I guess the husband was asking people if he knew exh and what he was about. I told her he can call me if he needs info. They have 3 small children, I would hate to see them go thru what my kids did.

[S.T. _I Made It!]

wow that is crazy about the woman you met.

BUT..... quit obsessing about exh! seriously, your posts are so much surrounding him and you need to be focussed on you. part of it is just making yourself do something. I agree that we use this to help vent, but sometimes, when you keep focusing on something, it will consume you, and so you need to step back and refocus on what really matters.

and that is YOU.

[Startingover2]

I know I do ST. Drives me crazy.

He was talking this weekend and I have to quote this:

Exh: "you know when you are at the end of a rollercoaster and its slowing down to a stop"
Me: Yeah
Exh: That is what is happening with gf and I.
Me: Oh, does she know that?
Exh: I think she is getting the idea.

He may be full of crap for all I know. He was hinting that he wanted baby and I to go to his brothers for the weekend with him this weekend and I said that was gf's job now...that is how the conversation about her started.

He also said that he wanted to be alone and focus on his older two girls and baby. Yeah right...he can't be alone or faithful and I told him that. He was offended.

He was friendly all weekend again. It sucks. He wants to be my best friend and be really close but yet be the town whore.

[Startingover2]

I know I am sucking bigtime right now so please go easy on the blows

Exh came for his visit with baby yesterday. He actually broke his record for 2 hours! Nice time though. I was trying to bbq dinner and he ended up taking over for me and finished it. It was like the old days of us hanging outside, talking, laughing and bbqing. After all that I did ask if he wanted to stay and eat with baby but then I threw a comment in "unless you will get in trouble" He said he didn't get in trouble...and he said he didn't care. Hes right...he doesn't care about anyone else at the time. He didn't care about me when with OW, he didn't care about OW when with me. Now, its the same with gf.

He finally left and sent some texts thanking me for dinner and a fun time with baby. I just thanked him back and agreed.

This sucks. Im lonely so any attention I get from anyone, including him is good.

Step back SO2!

[Startingover2]

Not much new to report other than we are dying with the heat around here!

Exh is still being overly nice and its starting to freak me out. He is CALLING at least once a day and texting alot too. Not like him. My friends think its because he is trying to get back into my bed...i don't think so. I think its because he is gearing up to take me back to court or ask me to take Haley.

UGGHHHH....either way makes me sick.

[dday101798]

Yeah, when they start to be 'overly nice', it usually ends up being they want something. Kind of a like a child who knows their about to be in trouble for something.