Thanks everyone! I am OK, had a DB coaching session yesterday that helped immensely (thanks Laurie!). Am meeting H offsite today, trying to prepare for a potential bad reaction. Laurie said to expect this & know that this will be like meeting w a stranger. So weird, never thought I'd need help on how to talk to H but then again he's not the same person now. Thanks so much for all your support, it means so much. I'll check in later today if I can.