I've been following your sitch for awhile, but I forgot way in the beginning. Was there an OM?
I think you need to detach. What you're doing right now isn't working. Don't give her attention she doesn't want. Go out and not think about her. Take care of yourself for yourself. See if she wants to come along for the ride. But do not seek her approval or ask her about the R.
It's just not working right now.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
