I have turned my bad mood in to a mediocre one but have spent the morning working on that and doing stuff that will REALLY show H, even if he doesn't comment, on how I am turning things around and GAL - even if it is only to look after my home a little more than I have of late. I have moved furniture, changed around the soft furnishings, cleaned everything that is standing still (though it was already clean - even the cats have run for cover)!! I have altered around two of our bedrooms and the house largely does not represent how it looked a few days ago! I wonder if he will notice?
I have put away my 'personal' bits'n'bobs - he complained a few weeks ago that our home was all about me and displayed none of him and so I have hunted around for the small bits that are left here of his. I have carefully but deliberately, placed a Science book on to the coffee table and one or two other things around the house - I'm sure that he will notice those! I haven't overdone it so that he considers it phony but just a few changes to say that I accept that this is his home too. I have moved his desk back to where it was, prior to his moving out and I have cleared off my own desk ... it was a bit of a tip - untidy desk, untidy mind??!!
Tomorrow I shall tackle all the leaves that have blown on to the patio and are making a nice skirt around the cats jungle gym! A job that we have both promised to do for ages.
I am surprisingly finding solace in working on the home and making it more 'us' friendly than he seems to think that it was previously. My financial plight does not allow me to go out and buy the things that I would like to in order to enhance my efforts at this time but he will appreciate that fact and hopefully just comment on what I have managed to do. Even if he does not, I just hope that it will make him start to think.
Oh hear me whittering away - sorry but it just helps to vent all this stuff when I am a home alone abandoned wife. Thank you for being there (((hugs)))
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
