First off, I'm real sorry for the pain you feel. I know how tough it is not having your kids around.
Second, I'd like to say you shouldn't have given her the kids in the first place. You had the agreement in place for a reason. Because she walked out. Period.
If she wants to have the kids living with her, she needs to earn your respect. I have a feeling you've never detached from her and maybe funneled all of your emotions into your kids. Now that your kids aren't there, you have no emotional lifeline.
Well MAN UP! That's the reality.
Your W has been walking all over you. She's been cake eating from day one and she knows she can do it. She hasn't experienced the consequences of her actions. If you still want her to come back, you have to get her to respect you. You even felt worried about your kids' safety, and you still gave them to her.
Sorry if it sounds harsh, but I can totally see why you're tearing up inside. Just because she gave a few eggs doesn't make her a mother.
I really do pray for you.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
