Gucci! Thanks for responding directly...I still don't know how to reach out directly to/tag people in my responses, if there is a way to do that?
To answer your question, H is abroad doing a volunteer project in Asia. He has a job w a consulting company starting in the fall and they paid him to do a 3-wk Habitat project, then he is traveling a week on his own. Before that he spent 2 weeks visiting him family, so we have not seen each other/spoken since mid-July (when I was somewhat begging retrouvaille and he pushed away). Since then my mom had major heart surgery, so I've been to CA a lot lately (and to be honest it's gotten focus off of me and on to her, which has helped..my mom and i are both helping each other right now, and it's given me a sense of purpose/mission outside myself).
He's emailed several times to check in (really on her i think) and actually called her the night before her surgery. Business school and constant partying are finally (i hope!) over...and real life may kick in for him when he starts his job (not till Oct).
In the meantime, GAL it seems should be my main goal! I have made some progress yes in that area and will continue to do so. I will not initiate contact until he gets back. He needs to miss me (if i can? i dunno if he'll ever feel that..)
Anyways, I just get nervous/don't know how to be around him. He asks how I am and I get that I say "fine" w a smile, not a ton of detail, not return all the calls, and just stay busy. He's never proactively brought up D unless I talk about R, so I will not talk about R... but he may bring up D himself when he gets home...then what do I say/do? That's what I struggle w...I can pretend I am fine, but still pretend I am fine when he wants D? That is the tricky thing..
Any other male intel would be greatly appreciated!! Thanks! hhh
