This feeling has come over me about control. When my world fell apart as I knew it, it felt like he was in control. Now, I feel like it's changing and I'm in control. In control of me and the situation. I now feel it is up to me if we reconcile. I have forgiven him, because I needed to do that for myself. He would have to prove himself to me. It would be my choice wether or not to accept him back. My priority would be to restore. But I really do feel I'm more in control of the situation now.
