pearl,
yep I am, got all of those and you btw! Haven't been on there in a while though....

Latest:
Yesterday, W comes here to drop off StepS13 for a day. He left today, so I wanted to have a nice day with him just the 2 of us. We had a blast! Anyways, W drops him off and hands me a photo of me and one of the twins from our trip to WDW. Then she asks me if I got that pic she sent by email the other day (the one I did not respond to) and if I noticed how much I have changed, that I am so thin now! While she's saying that, she looked me up and down, checking me out. Well, GREAT!!! WTF does she say that for??? If I am so awesome and good looking, then why the F%*% don't you come home!!!!!???????

Today, we're bringing StepS13 to the airport to go back to his dad. W is making conversation in the car. Asking about my mom, how she is, all kinds of stuff. Then she says that there are 2 small houses for sale just a few blocks up the street from the house. How it would be pretty convenient for the boys to be able to walk back and forth.... Now, what WOULD be convenient is for her to live in the same house with the rest of her family!!!!

Then, when I dropped myself off at the house, I asked her to write down her mailing address (so I can split the cell bill, didn't tell her this at first) and told her that I will need her to call the phone company to get her name of the phone bill at the house. She seemed a bit puzzled at first when I asked her for the address, but then she said: "Yeah, we need to separate the cell phone bill also." I told her that was what the address was for. I guess I was hoping for a little bit of why? After a couple of hours together, I felt a little hopeful again I guess... If hse had asked why, I was going to tell her that I don't feel like paying for her 50+ texts a day to OM!

Just venting here made me feel better... Thanks!

Still don't follow the whole moving right next to me idea. Is that how this kind of how this whole process goes?

1. Move out, far away, don't want to have anything to do with your H. If W needs help with anything, ask anybody, ANYBODY but H... Blame H for having money while you don't!
2. Keep yourself extremely busy, work yourself to death, afraid to dissappoint anybody, so work for free if needed even though you're running out of money.
3. Make a total mess out of your financial situation. Bills are unpaid, collection agencies are calling. All this, while H still pays a bunch of bills for you, including the kids' school, your car, your car insurance and your cellphone. Who's finacially irresponsible now??
4. Realize this can't go on like this financially, so start cutting the living expenses: move to a smaller apartment, keep the shop that sucks up money
5. Realize this situation is taking away time from the kids, and money that could be spent on doing things with them.
6. Close the shop, still work a lot, but not for free anymore.
7. Move right next door to H.

What's #8?? Wait 3 months and move back in? Divorce H and follow him for the next 15 years so the kids don't have to be away too long from either parent??? I mean WTF!!??

If anybody has an idea, let me know!