Today was my day with D1. She was giggling and happy when I and the boys arrived to pick her up at MIL's home. W seemed to be studying me somewhat, I was sort of aloof and not paying attention to her while I was talking and noticed her staring at me when I paused to look at her.

We went to the mall, out to eat, to a book store, and to an Apple store where D1 started playing with an iPod touch, then promptly threw a fit when I had to take it away from her.

The delivery went fine. W/MIL only stayed a handful of minutes, and I felt a flash of anger when I looked at W, but it quickly subsided.

I guess the way I'm looking at it right now is that she is wasting money that would have been better spent on D1's college, braces, or something more useful.

I'm numb toward her for the most part. I'm not really grieving the loss of the M at this point which I think is good. Part of me worries over the "final battle" with D1 and custody at stake, but I think I've won most of the battles overall and everything has sort of gone my way a little bit at a time.

The psychological examination report will be delivered to the Judge next week. I'm not sure if I'll get to see it or not. The psychologist spoke with me, he interviewed/tested W, then read through her journal/deposition, then did a follow up interview. Seems like he was thorough. He didn't tell me what his "conclusions" were and said that he used the journal/etc. in the evaluation.

I'm fairly certain it won't say "She is a fairly well adjusted individual."

"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."