No excuse, but I am tired from not sleeping well the last couple of nights..
Today W sprained her ankle doing laundry, I had been out most of the day with d8, playing tennis, having lunch, etc, and when I came home she said she may go to the doctors to have it looked at. I felt really bad for her, and that brought back a rush of emotion today..
I took d8 swimming, then came home and W was gone again, so I called to check on her, figuring she was at or going to doc. She wasn't. She said she was out for the night, and for some damn reason I said, oh, your out with someone, sorry, I was going to ask if you wanted to joing d8 and I for dinner. She was short with her reply, no, I am out by myself..
Damn, damn, sorry, just need to kick myself, I had been doing very well, had been doing things for me all week, but just seeing her hurt and me being tired, I somehow slipped back into some attachment.
I am going to take d8 out to dinner anyways, and we have to pickup a gift for my friends baby shower tomorrow, which we ALL are supposed to go to. I need to get back to where I was for that, and not where I am today.
M: 41 STBXW: 41 D: 9 Bomb: 4/26/09
On board the D train now..
"Suffering is when we try to change what we cannot."
