Morning, and thanks stacey. I had fun last night. Had a couple of friends over and we watched stupid sci-fi movies and made fun of them. Managed to make it thru my tea this morning without crying, altho I did come close. I read the news instead. That was enough to get me riled up over politics which of course took my mind off things. He would get a laugh at that, he always hated politics. :P
I logged into my site thinking he would have deleted that account like he did the others, since I know about it. But oddly I'm showing he is still active on the account. I didn't go and look, half scared and it would probably make me sick anyway. I didn't block him, altho I was tempted. I don't want to cut off communications lines, just in case. He did delete his pic off skype. and took me off his contacts. That was sad to see and recent. Today I have rehearsals, so I will be busy at least. Nobody that we both know can get an answer from him. Nothing I can do. UPside is I havent been served any papers yet. I am not really spiritual, I do pray , more lately than ever , but I don't belong to any churches. It's just not something i am comfortable with. Seems the news is spreading like wildfire...2 of my ex boyfriends have contacted me.... that was...wierd. I was polite and thanked them for their concern. Not really sure how to handle that. For a moment I felt more like prey than a person. <shudders> Im going to make a sincere effort to get thru today like I always have. I know he's being a jerk, but it doesnt change the fact that I made a commitment to him thru better or worse. This is the "worse" part...at least I hope this is the worst.
HUgs to everyone and thank you for listening to my nonsense. Hard, most of my friends don't seem to understand.
